Today I am reminded of Paul's words in 2 Corinthians 8:10 "...to be forward a year ago".
Most years, I can easily spot some area in my life where I made progress. 2012? Hmmmm....Let's see.....Nope. I didn't make any progress whatsoever. Unless you count the way I gave up. That was progress, I guess.
Sometimes I'm a control-freak about the way things should go. In my mind, we should NOT have lost our home in foreclosure. But we did. At some point during the year, I said "Ok God, I give up. I can't fight this house thing anymore." And I gave up. Not easily, to be sure. I fought day & night for 5 years with banks and lawyers and tax assessors and property inspectors and real estate vultures who drooled dollar signs as they slithered past my house on a far too regular basis.
Then one day I just stopped trying to control the situation and I gave up.
Fine. You want my house THAT badly? Here you go. We'll be gone in 10 days.
And we were.
My memory is a little fuzzy of those weeks. I remember the reality setting in that we might actually have to live in a car for a while. Thank God for 24 hour Walm*rts...where one can live quite comfortably without being questioned why your car has been parked there for days and where there are bathrooms with outlets for your blowdryer :-) I'm grateful.
Yes, we lost our home house. But we are not homeless. And, considering the fact that I gained 60 lbs last year, we were obviously not food-less.
And now we are in a nice little townhouse. And we are adjusting. Rather well, I think. Yesterday I set the treadmill up in the garage, amongst the stacks of boxes that represent Our Life Before We Lost Our House To Foreclosure. Really, truly, in between piles of boxes. I should take a pic. It's amusing.
It's also amusing that I've lost 11 lbs since Jan 2. I'd' be lying if I said I wasn't pretty happy about that. I never succeed at weightloss. I always give up after day 2 or 3 -- which I did this time too -- but I jumped back in on day 4, 5, 6, etc....which is obviously making a difference.
I am using My Fitness Pal as my diet buddy. I've tried every diet out there and failed at every single one of them. My good friend lost over 50 lbs on the Dukan Diet, so I KNOW it works....but when I did it, I wound up in the hospital with kidney stones. Same thing with Atkins. Then I tried Paleo, and no-wheat, and food combining, and HCG, and WW and JC, and on and on and on....Nothing clicked with me. Until now. So I guess that would be progress too -- Actually sticking to a weightloss plan for more than 4 days.
I did really well last year at losing things like my house, my car, my job....but not my weight. This year I'm really hoping and praying that I can lose that too.
